So yesterday I was very much better, tracking my food and everything, and today I was nearly 4 lbs lighter - bloody water retention - but the effect of that horrible shock has not worn off. I didn't walk before work today (partly out of fear of the bakery and partly because of the cold windy weather) or at lunchtime, when it was pouring with rain and still windy with it. I deliberately emptied out my purse before leaving home, removing all change that could have been used in the vending machine. And... I am back on the wagon - this time it's personal. And essential as I threw away all my fat clothes years ago and cannot afford a complete new wardrobe. My plan is to avoid temptation by avoiding walks unless I leave my money behind. I won't worry about proper training either to start with since we all know you can't outrun your mouth - and I am prone to feel like I've 'earned' a 'treat' if I exercise.
Which turns into a feast and then a binge. Training will come later when I adapt to the calorie counted eating. (I wanted my lunch by 10 am today - not the best start)