Wednesday, 31 July 2013

Bye bye dairy

Well, still feeling too lazy to walk at lunchtime today.I sat around reading The Paleo Answer by Dr. Loren Cordain and deciding to give up dairy (Greek yoghurt I'll miss you - sob!) After work we'd agreed to let our house buyer pop round with her decorator so I had some last minute housework to do (as a quick aside, who does that??? She hasn't even had her survey done yet and she's bringing a decorator??? Just FYI most of the house is a fairly unexciting but I would have said unobjectionable shade of almost-magnolia - the kind of thing you might want to brighten up 'some day' rather than the sort of thing that must be sorted out ASAP) so anyway I didn't train or walk after work either (slaps own hand) apart from a quick mile to pick up some odds & ends

Food today:
Breakfast: one grilled sausage, 2 scrambled eggs and a granny smith
Lunch: leftover turkey sloppy joes over salad
Dinner: seafood stir fry with shirataki noodles
Snacks: 2 cold bacon rashers & some walnuts

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Tuesday, 30 July 2013

No more migraine…

Well, finally not throwing up my guts anymore thank god, in fact feeling great day - just the relief of not feeling sick.
I actually did feel like walking at lunchtime today... Right up until I walked out of the office into the heavy mist of drizzle that would have drenched me in approximately 5 minutes. No, I don't carry an umbrella. I do usually have a waterproof jacket in the car but seemingly not today. So instead I went back indoors and read Protein Power by Michael R Eades & Mary Dan Eades - in hardback no less, as the book is not available on the kindle. I hardly remember how real books work, I'm so addicted to the kindle nowadays...
After walk I took a short, gentle walk. Nothing excessive because I figured I still had a little healing to do

(ok, that was an excuse... mostly ;-))

Food today:
Breakfast: one grilled sausage, 4 grilled mushrooms, a third of a yellow pepper (yep - also grilled)
Lunch: last night's leftovers - pork tenderloin - with a salad I bought because I was too lazy to make one myself
Dinner: big chicken salad
Snacks: beef jerky & walnuts

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Monday, 29 July 2013

Weekend washout - strong stomach required (hint: mine isn't)

I had plans for this weekend - Saturday I was getting my hair cut, then going to another National Trust estate, Sunday I was going to visit a housing development we're considering buying on followed by a long walk and possibly some shopping. Because I have been a little disappointed at the scope to really get walking at some of the Trust properties I've visited later I decided to get my main walking in separately, walking to the hairdresser (4 miles round trip) and into town a couple of times (1 mile each time). So, I did do that,and in total walked about 6 miles, some of it loaded up with a heavy rucksack, but then I had an hour to kill before the Trust place opened and during that hour I just felt like I'd slammed into a brick wall - So no trip out because I just couldn't force myself back out of the house - instead I just lay (literally flat on my back) watching TV and occasionally nodding off.
Sunday we went to the housing development and were there for a slightly ridiculous 2 hours while they walked us around the site then talked us through the plans etc. I felt slightly unwell on the drive over - kind of like motion sickness, which I blamed on my snacking on cheese before we headed out. I was fine while we were there, fine driving home & getting lunch, but an hour later I had a headache which rapidly developed into an ice-pick in the skull migraine complete with running to the loo to throw up - violently. I actually have sore stomach muscles and an aching back today, it was how I imagine projectile vomiting to feel. And that was the end of my Sunday - I lay down around 3:15 and basically stayed in bed until 5 this morning trying not to move too much. I felt great by comparison this morning, but after eating a couple of rashers of bacon for breakfast the nausea came back, so although I felt I had to go into work I was definitely not 100%. Urk. And Blech. An hour in I was throwing up again, even though there was hardly anything left to bring up. And then again an couple of hours later - I'd been drinking tea, and clearly my stomach felt that was a bad idea. After that I gave up on the proper migraine meds I’d been taking – the headache was gone - and switched to my favourite stomach settling meds - an ancient sachet of Resolve Extra which settled my stomach for the rest of the working day. I then had another sachet when I got home and had some food at dinner which is so far staying down – I just hope it doesn’t re-emerge when the Resolve wears off again in the middle of the night!

I hardly need tell you I didn’t walk at lunch time, and didn’t walk or train after work either…

Food today:
Breakfast: cold bacon
Lunch: cashew nuts
Dinner: Pioneer Woman's herb encrusted pork tenderloin with fig preserves (should have been dinner yesterday if I hadn't been dying at the time)

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Friday, 26 July 2013


This morning I was weirdly hungry yet uninterested in food - the food I had in the house, anyway. The second (or maybe third) time I opened the fridge in search of inspiration I decided to just eat left overs since that was easy and they were ready to go. Unfortunately my hungriness lasted all morning and in addition to eating all my planned snacks by 9am I ended up buying a bag of nuts just to get through to lunchtime. After lunch my appetite did a complete 180 and I actually felt somewhat stuffed most of the afternoon. The main thing was that I didn't need more carbs - of course nuts do contain carbs, but my overall carb count for the day was well within my target range despite adding an extra snack.
Another attempt at enjoying the cooler weather by going for walks today. At lunchtime I managed a happy 2.2 miles without being uncomfortably - or antisocially - sweaty, in fact I really enjoyed it.
After work I went out again, 3 miles this time,mainly striking out across local fields away from the roads. If only it could always be that way....
Food today:
Breakfast: cold bacon, small cold lamb chop, one slice of corned beef
Lunch: home-made (also leftover) mushroom soup
Dinner: bag of cashews and (too much) wine... Then a protein cookie. But I figure being slightly pissed explains/excuses that...
Snacks: Tesco snacking cheese - 20g of chilli cheddar, beef jerky and the nuts.

Thursday, 25 July 2013


No walk of any kind at lunch today - frustrating given that it was both cooler and less humid after torrential rain overnight, but I thought that I had to work through lunch and by the time everything went pear-shaped, meaning that I could have gone out, there was only 20 minutes before I had to go to a meeting. So that was pretty much that. As a result I decided to go for an after work walk instead of jumping on the climber - but that turned out less satisfying than I hoped because I only lasted one mile - it proved hotter than I expected once I got out there!!!! On the plus side I was really hungry when I got home but even though my pitiful one mile walk included a supermarket stop I didn’t snack AT ALL and instead just waited for dinner… a rare thing for me as I often do nibble a little bit while cooking (oops, I haven’t ever mentioned that in my food of the day have I? Cat out of the bag….)

Food today:
Breakfast: eggs, scrambled with a small piece of bacon; strawberries
Lunch: salad with corned beef
Dinner: gammon steak with celeriac 'chips' and salad
Snacks: Babybel, pork rinds and that’s all honestly

Wednesday, 24 July 2013

Oh what a beautiful morning, oh what a beautiful day...

This morning when I left the house it was only 15 degrees! That's not a massive drop from yesterday morning,when it was 19 degrees by that time, but oh the relief....
At lunchtime today I had the energy yo walk just over 2 miles in 50 minutes rather than an hour (I confess I still needed to freshen up on my return to the office) and just wanting to, let alone being able to, made a really nice change!

I've been feeling like my brain is melting in the heat lately. Yesterday it was evening before I even realised I hadn't written a post, and for the second day in a row I didn't bother reading any either, making me probably the last blogger / blog reader around to discover that was lying in a heap on the floor. Luckily I also joined bloglovin' after the death of Google reader so I was able to catch up today.

The last couple of days I've been eating quite well (apart from some peanut butter yesterday evening) - my definition of well is that if I'm hungry and it doesn't go away after waiting 20 (sometimes 10) minutes I'll eat something - but something low carb if at all possible, definitely grain free and preferably based on fat & protein. Having said all that, I did buy myself a treat at lunchtime when I walked up to the farm shop near here.... A beautiful donut.... Sorry, a beautiful donut peach, that is! I ate it walking back to the office and it was yummy... And so much more satisfying than the sort of crap I generally 'treat' myself with!

I've also now trained on the climber for 3 successive days, though the lack of air conditioning in the gym makes it feel like training in a sauna. And I'm recording my food and training on (my walks get uploaded automatically when I remember to track them with runtastic, which is great for helping my melting brain that often forgets what I've done) So I'm actually feeling pretty good at the moment, despite spending way too much time discussing where we should move to next with M. He specialises in constantly making new suggestions under the heading 'keeping our options open' where I would happily make an arbitrary decision then stick my head in the sand to avoid seeing anything that might be better on the horizon... On the plus side, since he got a job near London he no longer wants to move back to Wales, so yay!

Food today:
Breakfast: eggs scrambled with a little red bell pepper, mushrooms & spinach
Lunch: home made chicken, veg & Italian sausage soup, donut peach
Dinner: lamb chop in mango & mint marinade with broccoli & asparagus
Snacks: Almonds, pork rinds

Monday, 22 July 2013

Hi! Over here!

I decided to not post Friday because I'm kind of sick of just moaning on and on... So for a while anyway I won't post if that's all I've got to say! As a quick summary: Thursday night I was up all night with an upset stomach exacerbated by the hot weather. Friday I stayed off work, tried to sleep in the morning but failed because of the daylight, went out twice - just a mile each time for some fresh air - and otherwise settled for TV watching and very light reading.
Friday night I slept like a rock by my standards. On Saturday I felt so much better I went to Basildon Park, a National Trust property that you may have seen on film or TV. I did a house tour and wandered around the gardens for about an hour and a half, then spent an hour following a marked 3 mile walk through the parkland. It was cooler than it has been lately in the morning, but heated up later. The grounds were obviously suffering in the heat and dry weather.

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Sunday was a quiet day too. I walked just over 4 miles midmorning and another mile later on but all of it very, very slowly because of the temperature. I also watched Ice Age 4 in 3D, and loved it like all of them (even though I don't like 3D because of the glasses).

I tried to walk today but was crawling along so slowly because of the heat (28 degrees) that I covered less than 2 miles in my lunch hour. After work I managed 40 mins on the climber, and fell into a cold shower as quickly as I could afterwards!

Food today:
Breakfast: bacon omelette & one gf sausage
Lunch: home made chicken, veg & Italian sausage soup
Dinner: Turkey Bolognese sauce served over steamed leek and courgette
Snacks: Greek yoghurt with strawberries & raspberries, mixed seeds and pork rinds – a hungry day!

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Thursday, 18 July 2013

I slept!

Not three weeks worth, but definitely a full night... I had a pedestal fan about 3 inches from my back, every window open, and ear plugs to avoid the morning chorus... Whatever it takes!
Still no real lunchtime walk - I set out, but it was so hot I only made it about half a mile - in total, round trip. I'm so ready for this heat wave to break...
M spent today negotiating with a possible buyer for our house. The offer was lower than we wanted but not terrible so we accepted it - now to get through the process without everything falling apart!

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled egg
Lunch: lamb & salad
Dinner: Italian sausage sauteed with peppers, onions, garlic and mushrooms, simmered in passata and served with shirataki noodles
Snacks: pork rinds, pistachio nuts, pink champagne to celebrate the probably/maybe house sale

Wednesday, 17 July 2013


Last night I was so hot that after struggling to sleep for approximately an eon I gave up and played a bubble shooter game on the iPad for a couple of hours before reverting to lying in the dark praying for sleep. I had so little energy I had to take multiple coffees just to get the energy to leave the house. Even after 2 coffees and a pre-workout stimulant based on more caffeine I still really wanted to go back to bed...
At lunchtime I thought about going for a walk but I've been feeling self-conscious about walking in these high temperatures (plus its uncomfortable and therefore less enjoyable) so in the end I just stayed in the air conditioned office throughout the lunchtime period.
Then lay on the sofa during my designated training period after work.

My eating was 100% on plan - even tiredness didn't drive me, or tempt me, to the carbs, so maybe I did actually satisfy the cravings at the weekend rather than feeding the addiction. I lost 2.5lbs of not-true weight overnight, and felt a fair bit better on that account anyway.

Early night is called for. And if tonight is like last night, I will not be working tomorrow.

Food today:
Breakfast: hardboiled egg, avocado & bacon salad
Lunch: chicken & salad
Dinner: Roast mutton with broccoli
Snacks: pork rinds (spicy)

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Tuesday, 16 July 2013

Back again

Ok, so my carb holiday (holiday with carbs, not from carbs) is now over. I enjoyed eating foods I haven't been eating... I really didn't enjoy the after-effects, and I'm glad to get back to normal today. Since Friday, in varying quantities, I've eaten: bread, (not even gluten free) chocolate, potatoes, pastry, brown rice, lentils, ice-cream and sugar. And drank beer. It was a treat to eat them but if I could have unzipped my stomach and emptied them out pre-digestion I would have - especially Saturday evening, when I felt like I'd swallowed a cannon ball and was not looking forward to Sunday's 7 mile charity walk one bit. I also walked about 6 miles Saturday, 10 Sunday, and 5 or 6 Monday.
The scales told me I'd gained 5 lbs this morning - I can believe one, maybe even two - the rest's constipation and water retention due to filling my glycogen stores so I'm trying not to feel too bad about it. I also kind of intermittently fasted a couple of times, missing or dramatically cutting dinners because of big lunches.
So, Saturday we all went into Reading for lunch. We ate at one of our favourite restaurants, the London Street Brasserie

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Then walked around town a little - it was roasting hot so didn't last long before we headed home. The train on both legs was supposed to be air conditioned but actually it seemed like the heating was on, and the windows wouldn't open so that was really pleasant. On getting home I and the two S's - my father in law and brother - went for a walk in a local nature reserve. The plan was to stop for a drink at a pub nearby, but that one was shut for some reason so we had to go on unrefreshed to another one. We did go momentarily Primal though, wading through a ford and then walking barefoot (ouch!) On the road till we found a patch of grass to dry our feet on. We then found an open pub and stopped for a drink before heading home.

On Sunday myself and the 2 S's caught the train into London about 9:25. Registration started at 10 and last year we got there at 10 then sat around bored until the walk started at 11:30 so this time we gave ourselves 2 hours to get there for the start of the walk - and actually got there slightly after the start due to reduced tube services. The walk was great this year. We were slightly slower than last year (its easier to walk fast in pouring rain like last year than baking heat like this year) but we did the 7 miles in under 2.5 miles with lots of good conversation and the occasional photo stop

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Then we went to Wetherspoons and pigged out on burgers (i didn't eat the bun), chips, onion rings and other unhealthy crap. We also had 99 ice-creams before heading back, walking further than planned because the Circle line was suspended due to signal problems. Another roasting journey home, and I was ready to collapse. I did eat a little ham for dinner at midnight but that was all.

Monday M & I had reservations at Petrus courtesy of his brother. The S's came to the station with us and headed in the other direction. Our journey into London was pleasantly cool and I thought we'd broken the trend at last. In London we walked to the restaurant in Knightsbridge, through Hyde Park. It was hot but not unbearable, should have been just under 2 miles but due to me getting us lost was more like 2.5-3 miles.

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Lunch was a 5 course tasting menu and it was amazing!

Watercress mousse with salmon tartar


Followed by asparagus veloute with confit duck & a soft boiled duck egg


Then rump of lamb with crispy breast of lamb, roast potato cubes, green beans, puy lentils and thyme jus


A vanilla cheesecake with raspberry sorbet


And a hazelnut frangelico parfait with a heavenly chocolate ganache


Plus petit fours (not photographed) and a small cheese board (ditto)

Needless to say I did not need dinner after that lot! We walked back to the station (going a long way round again, whoops!) and roasted to death on the train home and after all that really did collapse.

At lunchtime today I walked a sweltering 2.15 miles and after work... did nothing else

Food today (much more restrained....)
Breakfast: scrambled eggs
Lunch: cold deli turkey & salad
Dinner: big hunk of cheddar with celery, cucumber and tomatoes
Snacks: cashew nuts and beef jerky

Friday, 12 July 2013


Well, I'm still struggling with the carbs today bit less so - I think I'm working back to doing ok. I wanted to say thanks for your lovely comment on my last post Deniz - you did make me feel better! I don't think my tiredness is due to a health problem per se, its just lack of sleep (that's not as patronizing as it may sound - stay with me). I've always slept badly - any unexpected sound wakes me up with a jolt of adrenaline that keeps me awake for ages (but if I use ear plugs I stress over the possibility of not hearing my alarm), if I'm tense, stressed, depressed, hungry or excited I can't sleep, I don't tolerate extremes of temperature very well... Basically a decent nights sleep is more surprising than a bad night. In the past though, one - two weeks of bad sleep would be followed by a night where I might get up to 12 hours heavy sleep (once it was nearly 15) and actually feel better, and this time round that hasn't happened. Anyone got a spare isolation / flotation tank I can borrow? Just for one night... I'll pay you money or pieces of my body for it, there's several I'm not really using...

I have a really busy weekend ahead of me too, so I could really do without feeling so mixed up and out of control. My father in law arrived for the weekend today, and my brother's getting here tomorrow morning, so that the three of us can do the charity walk in London I mentioned a while back. That's going to mean being on my best (barely adequate) hostessly behavior for several days; lunch out in Reading for the 4 of us tomorrow; a local walk for me, FiL & brother after lunch; the proper walk starts at 11:30 on Sunday, and will be followed by a late lunch out in London and possibly but not definitely a little sightseeing (that will be based on the weather - forecast to be very very hot and the state of our feet), and on Monday M & I have lunch reservations at Gordon Ramsey's Petrus so it will be back into London for us. Just thinking about it all is tiring!!! Now do you see why I'm eating chocolate??? This weekend is going to be a carbohydrate holiday, because its too much effort to be low carb with this much going on, then it will all be out of my emotional system and I’ll be glad to get back to it!
PS if anyone comments to say they do all that and more every weekend, twice on Bank Holidays, I may just have to hunt you down and sit on you. While eating a chocolate doughnut.

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled egg + egg whites with farmers market lamb sausages
Lunch: ham and an apple
Dinner: homemade chicken & spinach curry with brown rice – yes real rice!
Snacks: chocolate choux bun(s) - at least that's the only massive hitch today!

Yesterday’s post… I binged

Mainlining coffee... And chocolate for breakfast

Yeah. Still knackered though last night was slightly better than the night before. Lots to do at work, so more coffee needed... I had to stop for petrol on the way to work and found myself adding a Wispa bar to the bill. Which I then ate while making a pot of coffee, thereby combining two of my favourite vices. I will confess that I almost didn't own up to it, but that's silly. So here goes again - I had 2 protein cookies at supper time yesterday as well. Obviously I'm not doing well at the low carb thing right now. I don't have any doubt that its the way I want to eat, for weight loss and for generally feeling healthy, but I'm so damned tired at the moment and I can't deny that when feeling that way I want carbs emotionally even though my mind - and body - know better. So I'm trying not to be too judgemental towards myself now as adding guilt and loathing to the mix won't help, and I'm still very much intending to go back to it as soon as I get my head straight. I just don't feel the same energy boost from fat as from carbs, and trying to force it seems to cause situations like 2 protein cookies not one... I mean, why 2? If I'd just been able to make myself wait 10 minutes after the first I don't think the second would have happened (see how I try to disclaim responsibility by talking as if the second one happened TO me rather than me unwrapping it and stuffing it into my own mouth there). To admit my responsibility further, lunchtime I absolutely binged.

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs
Lunch: left over sloppy Joes turned into soup by the addition of beef stock, green beans, celery, spinach and mushrooms
Snacks: a boatload of crap

Wednesday, 10 July 2013

Crap day

I felt like complete crap today. I woke up at 1:30am freezing cold due to an overexcited portable air conditioning unit, I don't think it took hours to get back to sleep once I'd relocated to the less chilly spare room to thaw out, but I was up at 5am already feeling terrible and only feeling worse as the day wore on... Headache, gritty sore eyes, nausea and as much energy as a rock. I might need to hire someone to bash me over the head hard enough to knock me out for 8 hours tonight... I didn't have the energy for proper walk at lunchtime, beyond popping to the nearest shop for painkillers to get rid of the headache. All morning I was craving chocolate for the painkilling endorphins to cure my headache but luckily I didn't have any change for the vending machine. By the time I had change - after buying the painkillers - I managed to persuade myself to buy a snack pack of dried fruit instead - I know sugar is sugar, but at least it was combined with fibre and it wasn't refined or processed beyond drying. As soon as I ate it the nausea cleared right up.

I still didn’t feel well enough to bother training this evening… just laundry and other chores 

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with bacon
Lunch: duck salad
Dinner: sloppy Joes from Rob Wolf's excellent book The Paleo Solution (its flavoured with cocoa powder, how could I not?) on a bed of lettuce & tomatoes


Snacks: pork rinds and almonds; We Are Bear dried mango & pineapple.

Tuesday, 9 July 2013

Back to it

Still knackered. Still waking up in the middle of the night. Still cursing till morning.
Enough of that particular moan...
I'm no longer weighing daily, I'm switching to once a week. I'm not sure how that will go, as I have been known to feel almost unaccountable when not weighing - as though I can't be gaining /stalling if I don't know what I weigh... Or at the very least as though what I do today doesn't matter if I have all week to put things right - which of course doesn't happen when you're thinking that way. We'll see though - I don't want to be so obsessional even if it does slow me down (even if progress is so slow that it looks like standing still...) and I'm sick of basing my mood (and my eating behaviour) every day on what the scales said that morning. Which does happen. Sometimes a bad weigh in annoys me so I eat too much; sometimes a good one inspires me to relax for a day and treat myself – or try to do even better, but that’s rare unfortunately…

At lunchtime today I went for a walk along the canal towpath. Its really busy these days with far more narrow boats now that the weather is better. It was a slightly longer walk as I wasn't wasting any time inside a shop, just under 3 miles in total, but I was very hot and really appreciated the shadier stretches. I wonder if I should actually bring a change of clothes for these walks - its all very well popping into the ladies for a bit of a clean up, but the effect is limited when I then get back into the same clothes... After work I went on the climber and that left me definitely in need of a shower not just a wet wipe!

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with bacon
Lunch: chicken salad
Dinner: Grilled peppered duck salad
Snacks: pork rinds and cashew nuts

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Monday, 8 July 2013

Monday came round again already…

I thought I didn't have anything to post about today since I already noted you with a hundred thousand photos yesterday, but actually I did have a busy-ish weekend so I can still do a catch up!
Saturday morning was dull, I didn't want to go further than the supermarket in case I found a way to get stuck and miss my speed awareness course (it started at 12:15) so I really just hung around. The course itself was a lot better than I expected - not preachy, more interesting and more interactive rather than sitting through a 4 hour lecture. The presenter was good and it went quite fast. The only sad thing was that it was held in a holiday inn meeting room with no windows - and the weather outside was gorgeous.
After the course finished I trained then threw together a very quick meal.
On Sunday there was more hanging around until the NT see fit to open their properties. It was a half hour drive through some lovely little villages in Hampshire. I wanted to go on to a second property while I was already over that way but as I got into the car there was a traffic bulletin on telling me that a lot of the roads in the area were at a standstill so I decided against it. Instead I went home,stayed indoors hiding from the heat, and we started (and abandoned) a couple of movies - Apollo 18 and Resident Evil: Retribution.
At dinner time I absolutely ignored the ambient temperature to try a couple of firsts for me - I roasted a tiny rolled breast of mutton I bought at the Reading farmers market, and I also spatchcocked and roast a chicken (I've previously bought a spatchcocked chicken to roast, but this time was back to the beginning). We taste tested the mutton before I froze it to use another time and had the chicken for dinner. I did feel the shorter cooking time allowed it to stay juicier so I'll do that again pretty soon - I have another 2 whole chickens in the freezer, and I plan to use the carcasses to make stock as soon as they're cooked and dismembered.
Today was less interesting all round. Work = dull (I may have mentioned before). At lunchtime I walked to the supermarket - 2 miles round trip. It took a full hour with the shopping because it was far too hot to walk at speed.
After work I wanted to force myself to train for forty minutes as per usual. I'm getting better at using the climber now I've been doing it more often. I still don't like it as much as I liked the elliptical I used to use though. As I was very tired after waking up at 3am this morning I didn't make it. It’s a shame because if I still had access to the elliptical I might have. Ah well, I guess I have to accept what I have to work with…

Food today: NO CHOCOLATE OR REFINED CARBS – and no temptation. Possibly because I upped the fat to compensate while I’m readjusting.
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with bacon, a little cheese and some slices of pickled jalapeno
Lunch: chicken salad
Dinner: Chicken salad
Snacks: beef jerky and nuts

Sunday, 7 July 2013

The National Trust and a million photos again

Today I went to my second NT property – travelling into Hampshire to the West Green House Garden. I wanted to find somewhere nice for a long weekend walk, and in that I failed as the property isn’t large enough for that; but I think you’ll agree that it was certainly someplace nice! A lot of the flowers were a little past their best, and I’d like to go back earlier next year to see them at their peak – but even so it was glorious! A lot of my pictures turned out poorly because the sun was so bright, and in retrospect the fact that I couldn’t walk as far as I’d hoped may not have been such a bad thing given how hot it was. Like most NT houses and gardens it doesn’t open until 11 am, which meant I was there at the hottest time of the day.

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I have to confess that I went in the tea room and with my fairly innocent cafetiere of coffee I ‘accidentally’ had a gluten free chocolate brownie. At least it was gluten free… I’m now back to the low carb diet and not allowing any exceptions until the 15th, when I am going for a luxury tasting menu with M courtesy of a birthday present. So I will NOT be eating any refined carbs for the next week – and that’s a promise!!!

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Friday, 5 July 2013

I'm a low carb failure

Well, despite training and doing 9 chin ups last night I still didn't sleep well. I had no energy and no interest in self-control... I stopped at a Costa coffee shop on the way to work and as well as a latte I bought a nutty flapjack - and devoured it in my car. Then ate a protein cookie as well. And crisps later on. And I still felt knackered! I think I'm probably the worst low carber of all time... This week anyway. And today I actually ate more than 100g of carbohydrates... For the second time this week... (My target is 60g or less) I think I'll call it a carb cycling high carb day (even though I don't really carb cycle as I don't train enough to need it). I could claim victory in that I still only had one coffee despite my lack of energy but given that black coffee has no calories or carbs and the alternative energy boosts I chose ranged from bad to worst possible choices, I'm not going to kid myself that today was anything other than disastrous for my weight loss plans...
On the positive side I walked about 3 miles at lunchtime along the canal bank. It was hot - around 22-23 Celsius - but with a slightly cool breeze and there's a lot of shade so it was very pleasant. I went that way originally because there are no shops out there, so no chance to buy anything else I shouldn't eat (yes, unbelievably, I was tempted to!) but it turned out enjoyable in itself, so win win!

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I also trained after work. It doesn't take away the overeating of carbs, but calorie wise I was within the maintenance calories calculated by WLR, so that was something anyway... (Only just mind you...)
Tomorrow should be better. In the afternoon I'm doing a speed awareness course due to a small problem with a heavy foot on the gas one Sunday a while back... I partly wish now I'd just taken the 3 points on my license, but I've booked it now... That's 4 hrs out of my weekend where I can't pig out. Sunday I'm planning to visit a National Trust property and take a packed lunch so I can stay in control.

Food today:
Breakfast: Greek yoghurt with strawberries, flax seeds & coconut flakes + flapjack
Lunch: chicken leg & salad
Dinner: Turkey pasta sauce with 'noodles' of courgette & pointed cabbage instead of pasta
Snacks: protein cookie and crisps

Thursday, 4 July 2013

Stop telling me how important a good night's sleep is...

I'm sick of hearing how I'm likely to be obese / stressed / have heart problems / be depressed / destroy the world if I don't get at least 7 hours sleep at night. In fact worrying about all the health, mental health and social problems I'm going to suffer if I don't sleep well is keeping me up at night... Ok, not really, but its not like I'm missing sleep because I'm partying till dawn 5 nights a week... No, I'm lying awake at 3am praying to get back to sleep.... Like I was this morning, damn it!! I'm so fed up of this, I really am. Not only did I have no energy for anything useful this morning, but while emptying the dishwasher I managed to drop a glass salad dressing bottle onto the tiled floor, where it shattered hard enough to send shards EVERYWHERE including cutting my leg, which then bled on the sandals I was wearing :-( I'm always clumsy, but knackered I'm worse...
At lunchtime I actually managed a walk, just over 2 miles. It wasn't bad, but it was sticky and humid without actual sun, so it could have been better I just walked out towards the farm shop I like but didn't go in, as I didn't want to actually spend any money.

After work I went on the climber for 40 minutes and bordered on enjoying it if that can ever be said about an exercise machine. I hope it will tire me out enough for a decent night’s sleep tonight – I’m sure you do too since it might reduce the moaning tomorrow…

Food today:

Breakfast: Greek yoghurt with strawberries and cashews
Lunch: Bacon, avocado & egg salad
Dinner: curried chicken livers with cauliflower rice & salad – bloody gorgeous!
Snacks: beef jerky and Babybel cheese

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Wednesday, 3 July 2013

What a weakling…

After training on the climber last night I did 3 chin ups. Today lifting a cup of tea I can feel it... I'm not sure if that's
1) weak arms
2) heavy lump of body, or most likely
3) both the above... I need to remember to do them more often since its very clear how good for me they are. And 3 has been the most I can do in one session for ever because I don't do them often enough to get better / stronger.
This morning I was busy joining bloglovin'.com (thanks for the suggestion Betty!) and adding the blogs I read daily so I didn't try to fit in a pre-work walk. It was raining so I wouldn't have done anyway, mind you.
Once again the weather at lunchtime could best be described as dreary. Very warm, feeling damp and extremely overcast. I made some effort towards going for a walk, but I refuse to turn it into a chore and kill all the pleasure I get from it, so in the end it didn't happen... I did walk one whole mile after work though... and the second half was weighted due to the heavy heavy rucksack

Food today:

Breakfast: Bacon, avocado & egg salad
Lunch: salad with ham & hard boiled egg
Dinner: rotisserie chicken, coleslaw and salad
Snacks: pork scratching and Babybel cheese

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Tuesday, 2 July 2013

I hate Google

How can they take Reader away??? Anyone got any recommendations for a replacement please?

Yesterday was a real struggle for me because I was just so lacking on energy. Of course eating chocolate didn't help - or not for more than a few minutes anyway. This morning I still didn't want to get out of bed or go to work, and I wasn't quite able to stick to my lower caffeine target of just the one cup of coffee. Only had 2 though! Apart from that I felt more myself though, which was a pleasant relief after all the cravings yesterday.
No chocolate today! No pre-work walk either as in addition to being tired I was also busy. At lunchtime I went out for a short stroll - it definitely didn't qualify as exercise - and then after work I did go on the climber to get my blood pumping - and the sweat pouring! As always it made me feel better than any amount of resting but sometimes just walking up the stairs is too much effort to even be able to face trying to do more...

Added to continued stress about the never-selling house, M is planning to get a motorbike. I hate and fear the things and I’m dreading the amount of time I’m going to spend worrying about him when he’s out on the thing. He started the training on Sunday and he’s up to his neck in reviews of the gear and the bikes he likes… I see his point when it comes to commuting around here but he’ll never get me on the pillion, that’s for sure…

Food today:

Breakfast: Bacon & eggs
Lunch: beef and mushroom soup - home made to use up leftovers and dried mushrooms
Dinner: pan fried faggots with leeks & cabbage sauteed with bacon
Snacks: Greek yoghurt with a very small amount of honey, cashews, jerky

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Monday, 1 July 2013

Brilliant weekend (millions of photos)

I had a great time visiting my family at the weekend - and now I'm knackered!
On Saturday morning I drove to my mum's earlyish and we went to Stourhead National Trust property in Wiltshire. It was a lovely sunny day, the estate was beautiful and I enjoyed my visit so much I took out membership in the Trust. There are several properties not far from here with good grounds, so I hope my weekend catch ups will have more interesting photos as I explore them instead of rehashing the same very local walks week after week (after week)... My photography skills (or lack of) notwithstanding hopefully these give you the idea...

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Late afternoon on Saturday I dragged myself away from Wimbledon on the tv and headed to my dad's. I'd taken my new favourite whisky for him to try (Glen Moray - light and honeyed almost) and between us we finished the bottle (I'm not commenting on how much there was to start with, but at least one of us was very merry!) We chatted for hours and then picked up again the next morning till it was time to head home and go laundry / cooking / all the other crap that needs doing weekly. Dad & his wife are moving to the Midlands sometime this year and will be a 3 hr drive away instead of the current 1.25 hrs - I'm not very happy about that and its been getting me down a bit since their offer for the new house was accepted.
When I got home it was sunny again and I hoped to get a decent walk in but when I popped down town for some shopping beforehand it was so hot I couldn't face it. Instead I napped for an hour or so, cooked and generally relaxed, which I needed after all that driving! I didn't want to get up this morning and really didn't want to go to work... I've been struggling a bit with TTOM thus time round - back pain & stomach cramps, which I rarely get, plus cravings/hunger all day. I've picked a fair bit over the weekend and today I caved completely and ate a fair bit of chocolate - not decent dark chocolate either. Damn... Ah well, I think its out of my system now... It better be! I felt slightly sick and bloated afterwards so I'm not in a hurry to repeat it.

Food today:

Breakfast: Greek yoghurt with strawberries, flaxseeds & desiccated coconut flakes plus a small handful of cashews
Lunch: beef and mushroom soup - home made to use up leftovers and dried mushrooms
Dinner: very mature cheddar (big lump) with salad
Snacks: pork rinds, chocolate