Friday, 17 February 2012

Random stuff

Just to show I’m still alive…

My brother visited this week for a few days. Obviously we ate out a lot and obviously he & I spent a day wandering around London. It was great! We both get the same goofy smile on our faces when we go into London because its so nice just to get off the train and walk around for hours. By the end my feet were throbbing – just a gentle reminder that I don’t go for enough long walks these days! I meant to take loads of photos but we were too busy chatting and exploring so I forgot – bad blogger that I am! This is all I managed all day long…

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Yesterday I spent the day with my Mum in Devizes and the evening with my Dad. It was a lovely relaxing day, and my sat nav took me through some really pretty places. Unfortunately as the driver I couldn’t take photos to share with you – but I did make note of the fact that I drove through a tiny village called Tiddlywink. I want to live somewhere called Tiddlywink some day, just so I can tell people I do… Winking smile

Photos of Devizes:

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And one of my Dad’s cat:

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I haven’t weighed myself all week. That has to change, so tomorrow morning I will be stepping on the scales. It’s very possible that the whole population of Britain may hear me screaming when I do – if I wake you up, I apologise in advance!!!

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Friday, 10 February 2012

OUCH

I ache all over today. I decided to start doing some different exercise yesterday, just because I’m fed up with the things I’ve been doing lately (or more accurately, not been doing but been thinking about doing then deciding not to bother)

Over the entire day, in small bursts of energy, very broken up over the day) I managed:

110 press-ups

2 chin ups

4 planks

One 4:10 min Tabata-esque period of kettlebell swings (20 secs swinging, 10 secs resting, repeat until you want to want to die)

Approx 30 body weight lunges.

Walked about 2.5 miles (with not too heavy rucksack)

Now I can’t stand up, sit down, climb stairs, walk down stairs or raise my arms more than 3 inches without pain.

Must be cracking up, since I actually like the feeling… OK, that’s a lie! I like knowing I did something to be a bit fitter, but only when I’m sitting still and not currently aching Winking smile

It snowed here last night, not much, about a cm. The back garden looks pretty but the road out front is already slushy and horrible. I don’t like snow much, so the long walk I was planning for today will probably go on hold for a few days… Is yoga good for screaming agony aches, or is it a bit too much to ask my body to cope with?

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Wednesday, 8 February 2012

Adrift

I’m still not doing so well these days, you might have guessed. I’m bored with the blog I generally write, which is why I haven’t been blogging lately, but I’ve been missing writing something while I’ve been gone, so here I am back to vent a bit.

I’ve been doing some bingeing, some eating out, some ‘normal’ over-eating – and some laxatives to try to combat the damage. I have no idea why this crap is back in my life, I really thought that even with my very much less than perfect eating and training for the last year or so I’d put it behind me… but I guess not. The worst thing is that as much as I yo yo between self-destructive ‘don’t care’ and self-loathing disgust at my own excesses, the over-all balance is falling heavily into the realms of not caring enough about this to put in the effort. I don’t want to be fat and I don’t want to be unfit or to feel so low, but it feels kind of an academic not wanting rather than the visceral heart-felt DON’T WANT that it used to be, and I don’t know how to get that back… or how to fake it till I make it.

I’m not posting any more photos of my food for a while. Some of the time its depressing, some of the time its tedious, some of the time its embarrassing. I’m not giving up altogether, but if the recommended guidelines for dieting / healthy moderation are the 80:20 rule I’m meeting that – but exactly in the wrong way.

I want to keep blogging as you guys are the closest thing to human contact I get while M is at work, I hope I’m not going to drive you all away with the change in direction I’m taking right now… the route, and the method of transportation might have changed, but I’m still planning to end up at the same place. Eventually. Healthy(ish) again….

ETA: Holy crap, this weather bites…. I spent 40 minutes on the platform at Henley-on-Thames station this afternoon, coated, gloved and hatted, and still nearly froze solid…

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