If you can’t stand self pity, look away now, there are lots of more cheerful posts you could be reading right now.
If you are still here – or even if you’re not, for my own benefit, I AM NOT HAPPY.
(This is not because of yesterday’s indulgences, I meant what I said about not feeling guilty etc etc due to a day off the healthy eating plan. I can’t usually practice what I preach, but I do genuinely believe that never having a day off isn’t healthy moderation.)
No, I’m complaining about my back again. For no apparent reason – given that it was fine yesterday and I didn’t do anything active yesterday – I am in agony today. Like last time, it’s a pain between my shoulder blades, which isn’t even where I used to have a weak back. I feel like an elephant in high heeled boots is jumping up and down on my back, dead centre between the shoulder blades. It doesn’t get worse when I breathe deeply, so I don’t think its any kind of chest infection. It does hurt more when I turn my head or twist my body in any way. I tried to take a walk (without my rucksack because I’m not completely insane) but getting dressed and trying to put on my walking boots was such a painful experience that I decided it was not even close to worth it. Instead I drove (carefully) into town for some super-powerful painkillers (well, as powerful as you can get in this country without a prescription) and then came straight home to take 2 and pick up the pity party where I’d left off. Earlier I’d taken some ibuprofen & paracetamol without denting the pain. The Paramol (paracetamol and codeine) may have dented it slightly, but so little that I wonder why I bothered. I don’t actually believe it works, but I’m considering getting pissed just to see if that has an anaesthetic effect (or simply means I don’t care any more).
OW. OW. OW. OW. OWWWWW.
Anyone want to pop over and cut off my head for me? I’d do it myself but I can’t reach…
Breakfast: All bran with peaches
Lunch: Cowboy beans with a baked sweet potato, and roast vegetables – butternut squash & broccoli – and I forgot to take a picture!!! The beans were really tasty, but the beans themselves were slightly too firm so I’d cook them longer next time – they had 9 hours from soaked but raw. I didn’t add jalapenos and next time I think I’ll try that. The other 3 portions are in the freezer so hopefully the beans will soften a bit more through freezing and defrosting as so many vegetable foods seem to.
Dinner: Vegetable soup with Nimble LC open sandwich with grilled portobello mushroom, red onion, red pepper and halloumi. And unlike the Nando’s burger recreation, this time I put a few drops of Nando’s extra hot sauce on the mushrooms first, we’ll call that a marinade OK? Makes it sound a bit more impressive. Also we’ll call it a Portobello-halloumi tower because sandwich is a boring word. A combination of several of my favourite things, it was almost – almost! good enough to make me quit moaning for a minute!
Snacks: Greek yoghurt with honey & grape nuts; protein smoothie
Weight today: 10 st 4lbs – after yesterday, I’ll take that with thanks!