After spending a few days considering changing the name of these blog to ‘A Crazy Mind and a Growing Body’ I realised this morning what’s being going on with me! Years ago I was prone to migraines that lasted a whole week, starting with a nagging headache, bloated feeling, and craving for carbs that built up for a week until finally my head exploded and then, finally, I threw up. Its been a while since I’ve had one, but I’m pretty sure that I’ve been having one this week – a theory that is backed up by how much better I’ve been feeling since taking some Midrid (migraine medication) today. I had the niggling headache since Monday, but originally blamed my poor night sleep on Sunday for it. And definitely had the cravings!!! Last night I was in bed by 8:30 with the head pounding and stomach lurching… Shame I didn’t realise sooner and do something more productive than going into meltdown though! Thanks everybody for your support and advice, it did make me feel a bit happier and less freakish yesterday! And you’re all quite right about not keeping the stuff in the house so I can’t eat it – luckily its mostly gone (OK, the fruit cake is still in the freezer, but I plan on making off with that during the week as much as possible – but I just can’t bring myself to throw it away!)
Today has been a lot calmer with the help of my meds. I managed a walk into town first thing (I did feel running was pushing my luck a bit, so didn’t risk it) and then went to a lunchtime showing of Avatar 3D with M. I was very tempted by the Ben & Jerry’s stand, but we arrived quite shortly before it was due to start and the woman who should have been working the stand was nowhere to be seen, so I was saved from myself! The other snacks available at the cinema didn’t appeal to me at all so there was no problem there! The movie wasn’t exactly what I expected. I’ve read a lot of reviews on blogs the last couple of weeks, and most of them were raving about the film. I was quite disappointed to start with, possibly partly because the pills hadn’t entirely kicked in and the early part of the movie actually made me feel a bit of motion sickness-style nausea! Eventually though I got more into things, and in the end I enjoyed myself a lot more!
Oh yes, and although I don’t expect to get anywhere with it, I actually had my first half-way positive chat to an agent today about a contract. I don’t think I’ll get the job, but just hearing something other than ‘No’ was enough to improve my mood!
Breakfast: All bran with peaches & toast with laughing cow and jam
Lunch: A bought sandwich I didn’t bother to photograph (Chicken fajita flavour from Greggs)
Dinner: Carrot and cumin chickpea burger that I found unexpectedly in the freezer yesterday! With a big salad.
Snacks: Protein smoothie; wholemeal pita bread with a tiny bit of houmous and a snack pack of raisins.
Weight today: Absolutely no idea! I have been constipated all week long and have decided not to weigh myself until that sorts itself out – its just too depressing!
In the meantime, one more time – thanks everyone for being brilliant! Virtual hugs of gratitude to you all!