Roll on menopause
Thursday, 22 September 2016
Wednesday, 21 September 2016
When I got up this morning my back felt ok so I started the day with a (gentle and inefficient) training session. I then considered going out but decided against it as I was still having some over the top food thoughts. (Instead I stayed in and did laundry.) Later I realised why - TTOM - and also realised that this was why I was feeling a little emotional and had stomach cramps and lower back pain (that didn't feel like a training or bed making injury). I really didn't feel like I could face people at any level, no matter how superficial. I received a delivery at lunchtime and just opening the front door felt like a mission.
In the afternoon I quietly and antisocially mowed the lawn before going back indoors to hide from the world again.
Sometimes outside is just too... outside... and too full of people, noise and stuff. This was one of those days.
Tuesday, 20 September 2016
So embarrassing... First thing this morning I decided to change the bedding. That meant putting a super king size duvet into a super king size cover - and in the process I managed to do something painful to my so very annoying back.
This was before I trained - and as a result I didn't train. Between that and the gloomy weather I didn't go out today - apart from taking the bin out ready for tomorrow's collection.
The most exciting thing I did today therefore was finish my Ancient Greeks course. Once I've finished the other one I'll start another - I'm enjoying having something to occupy my brain.
At least I didn't comfort eat....
Monday, 19 September 2016
Well, I had a rubbish Saturday and an ok Sunday. That's enough about the weekend I think.
Last night I forgot to take my antidepressant which was very naughty and probably contributed to a very patchy nights sleep with weird dreams and restlessness. As possibly did the beer I drank yesterday.
I got up at the normal time today and inhaled a gallon of coffee before anything else. Then I trained for 40 slow and gentle minutes on the climber (I was aching all over all weekend from carrying / dragging heavy crap around on Friday and didn't want to overdo things - but did want to get my muscles working).
Today was the dreaded hair cut day - about 2 weeks overdue if you want to insist on being accurate. Last time I had it done there was a screaming toddler telling the whole solar system how much he/she/it didn't want to be there but today it was weirdly quiet and I was actually the only customer till almost the end - it was great, though not enough to make up for the hair cut experience itself.
In addition to the training I walked about 4 miles today - rather boring as it was just to the library and Tesco, and on my second walk I got rained on which was lovely. At least it gave me a solid excuse to not mow the lawn.
I also watched a really good movie - The Theory of Everything. Wow, just wow, Eddie Redmayne was absolutely incredible as Stephen Hawking and I cried buckets throughout (possibly partly because of the forgotten antidepressant last night) All in all not a bad day apart from being really hungry all day after the training - but I didn't binge. I just fantasized about devouring an entire gluten free carrot cake. And didn't.
Friday, 16 September 2016
I know I warned you I'd be moaning about the weather again today - are you sitting comfortably?
This morning at 2:30 I woke up startled by something - I wasn't sure what until the flash of lightning. That was followed by another thunderclap - and another. And another. You get my point. The storm lasted until around 4 and was close enough and loud enough to defeat both my earplugs and the white noise sounds of my fan. Then it started again about an hour later and didn't stop till after 6am. I considered going back to bed but by then I was hopelessly awake so I settled for significantly more coffee than usual and skipped training.
I had my Tesco delivery just before 10 and then went for a walk to check out the location of a house we're considering moving to. Another move. Another rental.
It was barely raining when I left home but started pouring down when it was too late to be worth going back. So I walked in total for about an hour and a half in the rain. As I'd already made a couple of attempts earlier and been defeated both times I walked 7 miles and got thoroughly drenched. When I got home I made lunch and then collapsed - walking in the rain seems like so much more effort because it's so much less fun. Of course after I was well and truly settled back in the sun came out and the late afternoon was gorgeous. Tell me that I shouldn't take it personally if you can :-)
These were taken when the sky paused for breath. You can still see what a glorious morning it wasn't. I was going to try to photograph the rain but didn't want to drown my phone.
My back aches a little this evening - perhaps from hunching over against the rain?
Oh, I completed Week 7 of my Financial Markets course this afternoon as well.
Thursday, 15 September 2016
Yep, still moaning about the heat - what can I say, it is really uncomfortable for me especially as I'm so much heavier again.
Today I trained (only 20 minutes - I'm alternating between 20 minute HIIT training and 40 minute steady training to help build up my endurance without (hopefully) injuring myself or knackering myself as I did last time I started up again) before walking into town to collect my nice new glasses, then mowed the lawn (hating every sweaty minute) and collapsed for a couple of hours before walking to Tesco. In total, including the climber and the mowing, I apparently managed 7 miles despite the heat, which actually makes me pretty happy. But I am oh so ready for the cool wet day we are forecast for tomorrow... Yes, of course tomorrow I will be complaining about the constant light drizzle, but in its own way that's got a charm of novelty after all this life-sucking unbearable heavy heat. Bring on the rain! (I can say that now I've mowed the lawn)
No change on the job front. I hate this.
Wednesday, 14 September 2016
At 5am it was 22 degrees in my house. How can that be? Why oh why???
I still managed to train this morning. I'm horrified by my current level of fitness mind you - considering how much I walk. But it does prove what 'they' say is true - fitness is so specific.
I hid indoors with the curtains shut for most of the day. I did pop out to Tesco and still the time was planning to follow that by mowing the lawn - but didn't because by the time I got back into was a puddle of sweat and no longer cared about the shaggy grass. I'm drinking water by the gallon and praying for a cold wet day at the moment. Unfortunately tomorrow is due to be more of the same but I have to go out in the morning to collect my new pair of glasses so I won't be able to follow my inclination to just stay in the shower. All day. Ah well... Winter is coming (probably)